Finding Our Light Again: A Journey Through Shadows and Songs

Life, as it often does, threw us a curveball recently. Eddie’s return from Manila to London brought with it a weight, a shadow I hadn’t seen before. He was physically present, yet a part of him seemed distant, lost in the echoes of past traumas. As he spoke, the pieces began to fall into place – CPTSD had taken hold, and it felt like we were both caught in a strong undercurrent, pulling us down together as we held on.

My immediate reaction, my old coping mechanism, was to retreat, to recharge on my own. It's how I've always processed things, this need to look for the bright side, to remember the good memories that marked the beginning of “us,” the foundation of our blog, AshleyLoveEddie.

During that initial period, as I poured my emotions into creating the first song, the start of something new (https://youtube.com/shorts/vs-8pVAlzXQ), Eddie wasn't fully present to share that moment of creation. The lyrics speak of finding a new beginning after being broken, of a virtual hug and feeling saved – sentiments that reflected my hopes for our future together.

Then came a moment of realization. My instinct to step back shifted. He needed me. We were in this together, and running wasn't the answer. I sought guidance on how to navigate this, how to heal myself while supporting him on his own journey. It was from this space that another song emerged (https://youtu.be/gkPg4ZlpYqg). This folk-inspired melody is about reconnecting, about finding joy in small things after a period of drifting apart. It perfectly mirrored our struggle and my decision to stay and fight alongside him.

And then, slowly, we began to find our light again. Eddie started to heal, and the creative spark reignited within him. He returned to our blog, sharing his thoughts and feelings with such raw honesty. His latest entry, “Miss Na Kita” on https://ashleyloveeddie.blogspot.com, is a testament to the depth of his emotions. The lyrics he composed on YouTube (https://youtu.be/RG8qmmtudL8?si=YMTYYMl8dap_W6uF).”It’s a powerful declaration of our bond, a reflection of how we found our way back to each other.

This series of events, marked by shadows and illuminated by songs, feels like a significant chapter in our story. It’s a reminder that even in the darkest of times, love and connection can be the guiding lights. And sometimes, the most profound healing happens when we face the storm together, hand in hand, finding our shared rhythm once more.

"The Song We Made" is more than just a song; it's a chapter from our life. This song was born from a journey through a dark period of struggle and healing, a time when our love and resilience were truly tested.

It tells the story of how my partner, Eddie, and I navigated the challenges of CPTSD. When it felt like we were swimming against a strong current, we found our way back to each other and to the light. 

Ashley

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